Let’s do this..
So, for the past few months, I haven’t been going to church as much as I should have (vespers, Sabbath school, morning services, AY, pathfinders, etc.).
Praise His unlimited and unbounded patience, grace, understanding, etc. Because he as placed specific people in my life this past summer - people who I have grown close to, people I have reconnected with. I watched them grow in their relationship with God; I watched them reignite their fire. This made me ponder a thought…what happened to MY relationship with Him?
Yes, I did go to church every week. But it was more that I was only physically there; I lacked 2 major components - my spiritual and mental being. Every week was the same as I tried to listen to the services with failed focus and comprehension.
Come school time, I was tested. Impatience, depression, stress. It all took hold of me. I’ll admit it was one of my loneliest moments, the feeling of being alone in a crowded room. I wondered how it boiled down to this.
I guess when you’re at your boiling point, you can truly grasp onto faith. I’m coming home. Slowly but surely. It is happening.
I just don’t know what’s going on with my mind… It’s not remembering that there ARE such things as facts…
And one is- you don’t fancy me..
So.. why should I fancy you?
Young cousin..I’m with you on this one.